Lepelstraat, juni 1945 © Nico Swaager - Stadsarchief Amsterdam
Hélène Egger - ‘When I got back to Amsterdam everything was in ruins’
At the end of the war visitors arrive at the farm where Hélène is hiding:
‘Visitors arrived on 8 May. The priest with another man from the resistance. “Sit down, child.” said the priest. “We’ve got good news for you. Now that the war is over you can go back home, to your grandparents in Amsterdam. They will be really happy to see you again.” I felt as if I was being strangled. ‘No’, shaking my head, ‘no’ screamed inside of me. ‘Don’t say anything,’ I thought, ‘just look up. Don’t cry!’
In the evening I asked mother Betje and father Gerard if I could stay with them. “Then I’ll go and stay few days with grandfather and grandmother.” “That’s not possible, child,” they both said. “Your grandparents want you back. However much we would like you to stay with us, you are theirs. You’re their grandchild!” I cried all night. The next day I had to leave my family and my dear friend Jo. When I got back to Amsterdam everything was in ruins. Grandfather, grandmother and me. We were pleased to see each other again, but the homesickness for my life and friends in Vorstenbosch tore me apart inside. I almost suffocated from sadness in that stuffy flat in Amsterdam.’
Source: Extract from Ik ben er nog. Het verhaal van mijn moeder Hélène Egger. In cooperation with the author Debby Petter and Uitgeverij Thomas Rap.
Return
After the war many start to make their way back from all over Europe. People reappear from their hiding places. Many captured resistance members and forced labourers return too. But there are many missing. Of the 70,000 Jews deported from Amsterdam only about 4,000 return. Sometimes they find other people living in their homes. Many houses have been destroyed.
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